Blahh that's about how I've been feeling lately. I've been in a funk these past couple of days and can't completely articulate or understand why I am. Although I'm pretty sure I know what the root of what's causing it, sometimes I just wish I wasn't stemmed with strong feelings and emotions. I mean, really how do they help? And why do us girls bear the brunt of getting the greater emotional gene? Or for a more medically appropriate term, why do we produce more prolactin (works with hormones) in our mood regulation system? I mean, what's up with that?? Sometimes I think my emotions play tricks on me, distorting my perception on situations that just serve to complicate things even more. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy a nice long cry every now and then. I prefer my shower, where I can let all my tears out in the company of the man made rain shower above me. It's like a therapy to me, soothing my hurt and releasing my hormones, but not too much to where my body becomes exhausted. But these days I've been feeling a different type of emotional pain, numbness. I just want to have an ' off ' button on these feelings. I wish it were realistic. Blah.
